I need to stop and think

For better than a week I've been fucking Khatib on an almost daily basis. And Roger too. Only with Roger it's love making. I need to list out my internal conflicts.

#1 is that I love intercourse to natural completion.
And I delight in going through my day freshly lubricated with semen.
And I appreciate large cocks on guys who know how to use them.
And I get so hot just from the idea of sex with a pregnancy objective.

My problem is that soon I'll be going in to my cycle. Going back on the pill will just mess me up. If i conceive again under this situation, It would be a coin flip as to how the daddy is.

Taking stock of my life, I have three daughters already, one ex-husband, one guy who is ready to marry me and the guy who wants me as his barefoot and pregnant 4th wife.

The conflict is that I love being a kept subservient woman. Greedily taking seed and carrying a c***d is what I am real good at. I make beautiful babies. Only problem is you can do that for just so long. With Khatib it will likely a new baby every year. And life at his compound is like living in a day care center. It is full time c***d care. And an unconventional life.

With Roger it would be a loving conventional sort of thing.

Then there is Ozzy & Kristen. Kristen is like a best friend sister and Ozzy and I love each other dearly. Heck, we are all enamored with each other. And life in their company is just so easy and pleasant. And making love with Ozzy is fabulous. Only with Ozzy I'll never have another c***d.

No matter what, I need to figure this out quick.