THE FINAL POSTINGS AND MUSINGS
My life is changing again. We are adopting a baby boy that will arrive on Wednesday May 20th.
And as one chapter begins, the other must end. This post will be my last - I'm going to be working on it in the remaining days I have left here.
Every day I will add something new here.
When I first clicked on pl.xhamstervideo.net 6 1/2 years ago, it had exactly 27 pages of content. It's now approaching 22,500 pages. There were no moderators, no live cams, no premium services of any kind. It was people uploading their favorite porn and finding new people who loved porn.
At one point, there was a link to outside porn sites and blogs - when was the last time you saw any web site pointing you away from their own site?
It's been fun watching this place grow up.
More tomorrow.
I have made some great friends here over the years. I've always had a base of 10-15 people I've always had conversations going at one time or another. This core of friends have been with me through good times and bad. They've offered encouragement, support, laughter, the occasional flirt, and kept me grounded during my time here.
I haven't talked to many of them lately... some have drifted off... others know what I've been going through with this decision and given me space. Like the last day of school, we will have to say our tearful goodbyes and move on.
To these band of merry people, I say thank you publicly. In this virtual world where everyone has secrets to conceal and identities to protect, I thank you for the trust you placed in me with that information. I thank you for the sympathetic ear, the warm hearts, the well lubed hand... okay, that's a bit TOO personal... Thanks to all of you - you know who you are.
FYI: the most number of friends I've ever had during my stay: 2,400.
More again tomorrow.
I sent a female user a friend request several years ago - this week, they approved my request. Nothing like waiting until the last minute - thanks.
Debating whether or not to remove the vintage porn I've posted here... what do you think?
More tomorrow.
In my time here, I got close to hundreds of users - some more friendly than the rest. In recent days, I've been reaching out to some of them I used to have connections with... and the silence has been deafening. I realize they've moved on, matured more, or just can't remember the times we had together. Had they looked at their PMs, they might get a sense of it.
That's the one thing about xHamster I really admire. The conversations will always be there - frozen in cyberspace for all time. You can look back on it warmly or coldly dismiss it with a click of a button.
The conversations I carried on ranged from the mundane to the hard R rated sex dialogue one finds in classy publications like "Penthouse Letters" or your writer-based erotica forum.
I wish I could have stayed closer with more of those conversations. But we each took something away from the sessions that we both needed - for me, it was interaction, plain and simple. I didn't want to just click on a porn video and jack off until I came, I wanted to talk about anything other than erotica. There were many - each were exactly what I needed or wanted.
I'll miss those quite a bit...
More tomorrow.
Exactly one week from today, I will be holding my son for the first time.
My wife and I will be a family for the first time. The nursery I built f******n months ago will be used for the first time.
I'm wiping tears away here. Been a long time coming.
I'll type some more tomorrow.
Today's the day I'm cleaning out my virtual xHamster desk. I'm spending the morning deleting hundreds of archived messages from my "Message" window. Most have moved on - others I'm trying to reconnect with to say "au revoir".
I'm also planning on going through my favorite users, blocked users, and favorite videos to clean out the detritus I've accumulated. Busy morning.
Currently online doing that.
Will type later.
I've decided to take my wife on a getaway weekend one final time before the baby arrives.
See you on Monday for the final two entries.
And as one chapter begins, the other must end. This post will be my last - I'm going to be working on it in the remaining days I have left here.
Every day I will add something new here.
When I first clicked on pl.xhamstervideo.net 6 1/2 years ago, it had exactly 27 pages of content. It's now approaching 22,500 pages. There were no moderators, no live cams, no premium services of any kind. It was people uploading their favorite porn and finding new people who loved porn.
At one point, there was a link to outside porn sites and blogs - when was the last time you saw any web site pointing you away from their own site?
It's been fun watching this place grow up.
More tomorrow.
I have made some great friends here over the years. I've always had a base of 10-15 people I've always had conversations going at one time or another. This core of friends have been with me through good times and bad. They've offered encouragement, support, laughter, the occasional flirt, and kept me grounded during my time here.
I haven't talked to many of them lately... some have drifted off... others know what I've been going through with this decision and given me space. Like the last day of school, we will have to say our tearful goodbyes and move on.
To these band of merry people, I say thank you publicly. In this virtual world where everyone has secrets to conceal and identities to protect, I thank you for the trust you placed in me with that information. I thank you for the sympathetic ear, the warm hearts, the well lubed hand... okay, that's a bit TOO personal... Thanks to all of you - you know who you are.
FYI: the most number of friends I've ever had during my stay: 2,400.
More again tomorrow.
I sent a female user a friend request several years ago - this week, they approved my request. Nothing like waiting until the last minute - thanks.
Debating whether or not to remove the vintage porn I've posted here... what do you think?
More tomorrow.
In my time here, I got close to hundreds of users - some more friendly than the rest. In recent days, I've been reaching out to some of them I used to have connections with... and the silence has been deafening. I realize they've moved on, matured more, or just can't remember the times we had together. Had they looked at their PMs, they might get a sense of it.
That's the one thing about xHamster I really admire. The conversations will always be there - frozen in cyberspace for all time. You can look back on it warmly or coldly dismiss it with a click of a button.
The conversations I carried on ranged from the mundane to the hard R rated sex dialogue one finds in classy publications like "Penthouse Letters" or your writer-based erotica forum.
I wish I could have stayed closer with more of those conversations. But we each took something away from the sessions that we both needed - for me, it was interaction, plain and simple. I didn't want to just click on a porn video and jack off until I came, I wanted to talk about anything other than erotica. There were many - each were exactly what I needed or wanted.
I'll miss those quite a bit...
More tomorrow.
Exactly one week from today, I will be holding my son for the first time.
My wife and I will be a family for the first time. The nursery I built f******n months ago will be used for the first time.
I'm wiping tears away here. Been a long time coming.
I'll type some more tomorrow.
Today's the day I'm cleaning out my virtual xHamster desk. I'm spending the morning deleting hundreds of archived messages from my "Message" window. Most have moved on - others I'm trying to reconnect with to say "au revoir".
I'm also planning on going through my favorite users, blocked users, and favorite videos to clean out the detritus I've accumulated. Busy morning.
Currently online doing that.
Will type later.
I've decided to take my wife on a getaway weekend one final time before the baby arrives.
See you on Monday for the final two entries.
9 lata/lat temu
I've made many great friendships on here and hope to continue making that grow.
Take care.
BH